I have invested a lot of time over the last 2 and a half years since my "seizures" stopped still poking around rabbit holes of yesterdays, and wondering how I got to that point. Listen, if you think a lifetime of healing can all happen in 19 months, you are mistaken... just because those events stopped doesn't mean the process is over... far from it. I have done some of my most intensive digging/uprooting over the past 4 months and freedom is still being realized. Thank God!
Recovery/healing happens slowly, otherwise I think we would not endure it. Healing hurts, but not as much as the nature of what caused our scars and wounds to begin with. Recovery is amazing and has many unique opportunities to see life come from the ashes of past. I speak from my heart when I tell you I have never thought, in a million years, I would ever see this Light in my eyes. I have spark, I have genuine caring and bonding friendships. I love... and that love is evolving everyday as I become more whole. So if you every wonder if your life can change, can evolve into something beautiful and full of realized potential... the answer is Yes! You have to answer one question first: are you willing to see what happens next in this mystery we call life? Are you willing to welcome the morning sun and smile at this new day? Are you willing to turn yesterdays into fading memories by turning, all the way, into the present moment? Are you able to refuse to belief in one more life or self-hatred thought. If your answer is yes, set your course. What will you do now? How will you make it so? Don't do what you did yesterday(s) if no results formed from them. I have center, and I formed that place with a strategic method I begin each morning - when I feel like there is a distance between me and my center (which I call God) I stop and get grounded. Where is your center? Do you want one if you don't already have one? Lastly, are you being intentional about starting your day there and finding your way back to it when you feel yourself drift? Questions require answers... pause and talk with yourself or a trusted friend/loved one about yours or their "center". Process and return to the path of the day. :-)
When I was a little girl I wanted to be a scientist and study animals... what did you want to be? This is a pause-button moment - ponder a while, go back and think on it. Ask yourself - "what did I want to be when I was a kid". The reason to hit pause and go back is that there are clues that can be very helpful to us in our journey of "now".
Non-epileptic seizure Recovery is very much a journey. After experiencing the process of my own journey on the road of recovery I wanted to give others hope! Share my experiences, my humbling, and my answers for the "why". PNES or NEAD or NES (all mean non-epileptic seizures) can all lead you to a why... would you want to know? Can you rally your courage to face the cause and stop them? That is a very personal and individual question/answer. Maybe the answer is "not yet", or maybe "it's not alone" (no one can alone), or maybe it is a confident "yes!" Whichever way you answer, it is important to answer. It is important to plant in your mind the fact that others have and will continue to recover. It is important to know your value and worth. And it is important to find your "why(s)".
If you do not reflect, you cannot do any better the next time around... I am certain of this. Let's say you have a job interview and you don't prepare before, you don't do mock interviews with colleagues, family, or friends - and you blow it - what do you do now? To most, better preparation would be obvious but what is not obvious, what came only through reflection, are the elements of preparation (ie. mock interviews.)
I am going to ask a challenge question. If you knew you had someone in your life that was not good for the direction you want to move in, would you "escort" them out of their role in your life or would you feel too bad and let them instead poison your well of potential?
Who you surround yourself with, the messages you feed yourself, and the media you spend time and brain investment in will show in the out-pouring of this life (the only one you get.) Be brave, be bold and demote people, events, and personalities that harm your potential to be Great.
Christine Mauriello's core strengths include motivational speaking, teaching, relational skills’ training, coaching, and compassionate care to meet the recovery goals for those with PTSD, addiction, trauma, divorce, and other setbacks.